Desperately searching for a reason to open my eyes in the morning.
Piecing together the pieces of my broken heart.
Throwing back the covers and feeling the bitter air bite at my legs,
I don't want to live another day in this pathetic existence.
Every piece of my soul screams for a reason for this day,
I bind back every scorching comment of my insincerity and insecurities.
I'm sick of pretending that this morning when I woke up life was better than before.
I'm sick listening to my mind as it tells me the legistics of this day.
I'm sick of staying up until my body no longer functions as my brain races with the worries of the moment.
Lord, save me from myself and this place that I am at.
I know that when things get bad to worse it becomes my fault when I steer away from the truth,
But the truth of the matter is that I need you now more than ever.
I ache with every mispoken lie, as tears roll down these cheeks.
I miss you as each time I inhale the sweet air my glass heart begins to crunch and shatter against the concrete floors.
I sigh with every missed opportunity, as each day rolls by.
Please don't forsake me in times like these.
I miss you.