Your joy is gone.

It is physically and emotionally beating me up to see you so down.
You seem like every second your going to cry,
It making me feel like it would be better to die than to live without you.
I know I couldn't live without you but your so sad.
Where has your joy gone?
Where is the peace that I see in your eyes...sometimes.
My friend, where has your grace gone?
I'm so afraid that you'll be lost forever and I miss you.
I miss you more than enough for a day, a month, a year.
I miss you when your there...when I see you, when I don't.
Because its not you,
Its not you who I see staring back at me.
The tall person you appear to be is drowning out your personality.
The way you used to laugh.
The way you'd help people with their math even when you didn't get it.
It was funny.
Now your too tired,
Your beating yourself up about this all.
The tears are running from your eyes and your short of breathe because you don't have time to breathe.
And its beating me up to see you like this.
You don't even try to pretend anymore.
You don't try to pretend that it doesn't bother you...
I feel like it's my fault.
Every time I come into the picture your laughter fades,
Your smile is shadded...
I don't know what I could have done but you just seem so sad.
I want to hug you, love you...show you that I care.
Hold your hand until you realize that I"m here...
Because your joy is gone.
Its been depleated...
And I personally feel defeated.
I thought that the love you felt towards me, our friendship would never be lost...
But now I feel as though I"m doing something wrong.
That somehow what I write isn't a good enough song.
Because you won't sing it anymore.
Your eyes don't twinkle and you don't frolick through the trees of magic anymore.
I want to know where You've gone.
I want to know why your joy is gone.