Where has the time gone?

It's been dead.

This world is a constant swirl of business and I realized that if I don't change it, it'll never get better.
I work, work, work all the time and somehow I think I used to believe that the world would slowly begin to give me a pace that fit better in my mind, that fit better into my life.
"Get out of bed, your stronger than before." The world isn't changing for the better but somehow I figure that if I stay in bed long enough, it'll be back to the way it should be.

I have two jobs. I tutor 5 days a week and then work 3 days a week at please mum. I have school every day, on Wednesdays, Mondays, and Fridays it goes until 5. I don't have time to fuss and fight. I don't even have time to go for a walk and listen to the wind and water flow around me.

I miss the simplicites of life. I miss my ability as a child to sit and play in dirt and right now I'm just wondering if I'll ever have time to sit down and play in the dirt again.