Tonight

It's time to be strong tonight,
When the stars will shine and the moon is bright.
Its time for me to face my fears,
wipe away these tears
and counter these mirrors.
Even when I can't see the love,
When I feel as though my word is shaken,
And when all of my strength has been taken
I must take a breathe.

Its time to be strong tonight,
For the look on clear faces is a strange sight.
I feel as though I'll be lost forever,
But that I must be strong and always clever,
Never showing the fear I feel,
The countless pain I continue to reveal.
I'm sick of complaining
Cause I feel like I'm always shaming,
My Lord and Savior,
My Redeemer.

I'm afraid of re-telling my long story,
Afraid of showing all of the bloody gorey,
I feel like I'll get lost on the way,
Like I won't be able to say,
That I stayed strong through the storm,
That I fought past societies norm.
I don't want to seem like another kid,
Spoiled and rotten and in for the ride,
Its not a random playground slide.
Its time to be strong tonight,
I need to keep up these countless fights.

I know I may seem like I'm being rude,
That I don't care or I'm being crude.
I want you to know that I'm breaking inside,
That these tears they keep running, tears I've cried.
I want you to know that I'll miss you so much,
That I'll wish for this hug, this kiss, this touch.
I'll feel so alone it'll be hard to bear,
Even when I know you'll always care.
But its time to get on the flight,
Time to be strong tonight.